Get on yer bike! The Redundancy Cycle

I've been having really nice dreams this past few nights and have even woken up laughing. I feel a distinct change in the air, something is happening to me and I don't know what. My three week headache is gone and I've a new air of optimism about me. I started to wonder is there a redundancy cycle similar to the cycle of grief. I googled, there's not! Though looking at the grief cycle it pretty much is the redundancy cycle.

The 1st Stage: Shock and Denial, yep I was there. I was shocked and I denied. I was shocked at losing my job, not the fact that it happened, as the CEO ignored us for the best part of 6 weeks before hand (guilty conscience maybe?) Denial, I spent my last salary as if the next one was coming and didn't really thinking about being a little more frugal. Total Denial!

2nd Stage: Anger & Anxiety. Yep I was definitely there. Anger I was so fucking angry and when I think about how angry I was then, I'm getting angry now. Oh and the Anxiety, I'd say it manifested itself in the resulting three week headache I've just got rid off. I keep popping back to the 2nd stage every now and then though!

3rd Stage: Depression & Detachment, I don't think I was depressed but I was a little down. I placed so much faith in one person and felt let down. My energy levels have fallen and I fell a little overwhelmed at the prospect of not having a job since I was about 12 years old. So I've definitely reached this stage.

4th Stage: Dialogue and Bargaining, Telling my story, I did tell. I got fed up of people blaming the current economic climate for our redundancies. I made a conscience decision to tell the truth about what happened. I told other people in the sector, I told family, I told friends. I also got a lot of support from my fellow colleagues, we met had coffee and chatted about the situation. As for struggling to understand what happened. I didn't struggle, it's been very clear to me.

5th Stage: Acceptance, I think I'm there - Not sure what my new plan is but I'm working on it.

I've hit each of these stages but not all in the exact order, in fact I keep jumping back a few stages and then fast forward to the last one again. There is light at the end of the tunnel. I definitely believe that my psyche is changing, laughing in my dreams, that hasn't happened in months.

If you've just been made redundant, get on yer bike and pedal as fast as you can out of the redundancy cycle and let those laughing dreams come.